Figuring Him Out

In the big picture, I have only known Bruce for three and a half months. I really don't know that much about him. How could I? Its the same if you flip it; he doesn't know that much about me either. I'm learning that he processes information completely different from me. For example, when I went through my quarter life crisis and decided to intern as a wedding planner, I was proactive and involved many people in my life. I talked it out, and I JUMPED right into it. Bruce is going through the same type of life hurdle. However, he is "thinking" a lot and likes to be alone. He isn't use to people wanting to help him and be involved. There has been multiple occasions where he has asked me why I care so much. Thats the thing...if you are in a relationship, your partner should automatically care about your every day life!! They shouldn't have to be asked to actively participate in your life; they should just be there. This is what scares me:( I really don't know if he is in this with the same intentions. Women look at relationships in terms of the future. For example, if I am on a first date with a man that I know I couldn't take home to my parents, there will not be a second date. There is no need to waste anymore time on something that is never doing to get me where I want to me. I hate being stereotypical, but men think more in the short term....like can I get her into bed.

I know a lot of this is past experience on my end. What other men have done to me. On the up side, I am figuring out so many qualities that Bruce has. He knows how to treat me like a lady. He is the definition of a gentleman. Because of him, I am now noticing how men in my every day life are just down right rude to females. There is something about him that whenever I'm beside him, I am calm and at peace. I could talk to him for hours about anything! I feel safe in his arms, which it has been awhile that I have been able to let my guard down the way I do with him. I fell asleep beside him on our very first date, and now he makes fun of me because I sleep sooo sound at his place.

Basically, I really like him, and I don't want to be too much. However, I want him to open up more to me. I know I just need to chill out because everything takes time. We are moving along at a perfect pace, but I just can't get enough of him. Maybe that is the bigger problem...I just want more!

xoxo
Kiki